Falling behind

I’m just gonna come out and say it, I have actively hated having to blog for the past few days. I completely regret my decision to blog once a day, every day, whether I feel like it or not. I have stuff I want to talk about but I feel like I don’t have the time or energy to arrange the words properly in a way that makes sense or matters to people who aren’t me, and so instead of dressing up the cool stuff I like, I’m rambling incoherently in my desperate bid for Content Any Content and ruining everything. I’m really rather tired and stressed out and aggravated.

Maybe one day far in the future, I’ll look at how I managed a streak of daily blog posts for an entire month and puff up with self-important pride, but right now all I can think of is god, what if anyone actually READS any of this, that would be the WORST. Kind of against the entire point of the thing, right?

I am so far behind on everything. I want to have proper book/anime/etc reviews up, but all my energy and brain capacity (not to mention free time) is being spent on these daily blog entries full of drivel. I dunno. Maybe I need to rethink all of this. Instead of talking about the stuff I want to talk about, I’m here every day apologizing for totally blanking and not being able to talk about the stuff I want to talk about and just god can someone please shut off my brain I hate the sound of my own voice bouncing around my skull.

So, that’s where I am right now with these daily blog entries.

In other, better news, today was the first snow of the season:


So, THAT was cool.

Maybe I need to make some kind of blogging schedule. My list of topics that I wanna talk about is longer than the Bible, but trying to decide what to talk about and flesh out per day is using up all my brain power and making it so I don’t end up talking about anything at all.

Tomorrow I have to work all day in Tokyo, and worse, because of the snow it’s likely that the trains will be delayed and there’ll be all sorts of terrible mishaps just getting there. So that’s going to be fun.

I’m all set for another month-long winter vacation, to be honest.